I made a resolution earlier today: from now on, I will only spend my free time on things I enjoy.
For me, that is a revolution.
Over the last three years, I have created and spent a lot of time on close to 20 different extra-curricular projects. That’s crazy – really, crazy.
Some have succeeded, some have fallen flat – but the combined effect has been restlessness and a growing feeling that I’m searching, fruitlessly, for something truly fulfilling.
Though I have enjoyed much of what I’ve done, there have also been long periods when I have not.
In those periods, I’ve kept going on projects I have lost interest in, or knew deep-down weren’t going to work.
And I’ve felt obliged to work on those projects because I’ve created expectations in or obligations to others that I will do so.
It’s like having a second job – except in this job, you don’t get paid, your work is often invisible to the rest of the world, and you have a nagging sense that you might be wasting your time all along.
Not much of a job!
Today I have handed in my resignation, with immediate effect.
I’m done with working on unrewarding, unenjoyable, unfulfilling stuff that I’m only doing in the first place because I’ve convinced myself I have to.
From now on, I’m only going to spend my free time on things I enjoy.
That’s a win-win-win:
– It’ll be more fun
– I’ll probably produce better quality stuff – I find that when I’m doing something I enjoy, I do it better
– I should improve faster – I’ll get better at what I’m doing more quickly by spending more time on fewer things
What do I enjoy?
Earlier tonight, I made a list of the things I really enjoy doing. Here it is:
3. Piecing ideas together
4. Playing tennis matches
A modest list. But a list that includes only things I really enjoy.
I feel like I’ve got some catching up to do!