I’m looking for a new outlet. A new way to communicate. A new form, style, point of view. I’m looking for more space.
Writing a blog is not like writing a book. It’s a process. There’s no definition of done, no deadline. So it tends to shift shape as you go. Read a couple of my early posts, then read a couple of the more recent ones. I think my writing is snappier now, but the topics have changed too.
The shape-shifts take time and tend to emerge gradually. A blog is the sum of its posts. Over time more and more posts accrue of a certain type or on a certain topic, and that accretion defines the direction the blog has taken in the past.
But it also defines the direction that the blog will take in the immediate future. The accretion of types and topics sets the vector for the blog – its trajectory.
I do intervene periodically if I’m unhappy with the trajectory; e.g. my recent decision to write more short-form posts. But the combination of these gradual shifts in trajectory + my occasional interventions is unlikely to bring about a radical change of direction. The process of accretion defines a directional spectrum which limits the degree to which the blog can change course at any given moment, or even over a given period.
So this post is an attempt to shift direction more radically. I don’t find this blog as creatively fulfilling as I want to. And I feel a tension between privacy and revelation: the most powerful posts are the ones in which I turn myself inside-out, but there are some people with whom I am uncomfortable sharing those stories, and (since I am naturally rather shy and prefer to be self-effacing), my personal stories tend towards sadness rather than celebration.
Time to slow down. I’ll post less, and experiment more.
So this post marks a hiatus; and perhaps an end to this blog in its current form.
It also means a new beginning, both for this blog and – perhaps – for a fresh project.
What does the next version of this blog look like?
The answer will lie in the trajectory of the next set of posts.